Naturally bored with her husband, adultery in her mind
40 years old, married with two children, but still… one-sidedly in love with the young man who just joined the company, am I “too fat” already, or is there a mental problem? People are less than me by an armor, and they’re still virgins… Just thinking about it makes me want to slap myself in the face to wake myself up.
But honestly, there are many moments, I still want to believe that no matter how old you are, whether you are married or have children, people still know how to love and have the right to pursue love, right?
The French president married a woman 24 years older than him, committed to being the stepfather of two “children” around his age… Well, but, he’s the president…
These days, my mind keeps wandering around in such a mess. It’s not because there’s nothing wrong with my husband. The nearly 50-year-old man still worked hard to come back early to go to the supermarket to help his wife. After I finished the meal, he also voluntarily rolled up his hands to wash the dishes. He also has never forgotten any anniversaries, from the day I accepted my love to the wedding anniversary.
3 years of love, 15 years of marriage and living together, we have been together for a total of 18 years. During those nearly 2 decades, he has always been the husband and father that my mother and I never had anything to complain about. I originally believed that I had no reason and would never betray this man, until my 19th year together, when I met H. – The employee who was 1 year younger than me was new to the company.
H. looks a bit older and more mature than his 28 years old. He is not only polite to his boss and colleagues, but also always galant as if in this company, every woman is his girlfriend. we’re all out.
Raise your hand to hold the elevator door when a female colleague enters, take the initiative to carry a water bottle for the next group when the group does not have a male. No matter what you ask, H. also helps, no matter how heavy or light it is. H. is very enthusiastic but very quiet, he keeps coming to the company to work, only taking the initiative to do it, but rarely actively asking about anyone.
To be honest, I have had many steamy dreams with H.
To be honest, I don’t really know what’s with H. that I can’t get him out of my mind. Because H. is tall, handsome and galant? My husband is not as bad as he was when he was 28 years old? I don’t “fall in love” with H. because he’s rich. 28-year-old youth, few people can be rich.
Although I felt guilty and troubled in my heart, I also tried to put my husband and H. on the scale. Every time I bulleted my strengths, my husband prevailed.
But to talk about feelings, I’m in love with the vibe this young man gives me. The times he took the initiative to buy me coffee even though I didn’t ask, the times he told me it was convenient and then came back home after work,…
H.’s actions made me unspeakable. Only, he never crossed the line between boss and employee. Never text outside of work, never use the excuse to ask about work to push the story to the boss. I really can’t find a reason for my excitement at this age of menopause, much less blame it on H. or my husband.
As a mother of two and a boss, I know I need to brace myself to not allow myself to overstep my limits. But the more I tried, the more angry and frustrated I felt in my heart. A hug from my husband while sleeping also makes me irritable, a bowl he washes with dried rice grains on it also makes me sigh as if the end of the world is coming.
I don’t think I’m brave enough to divorce my husband and pursue love in my 40s. It’s too risky, I know. It’s just a feeling of unease that takes over and eats away at my soul.
I don’t know if at this pre-menopause age, women are so easily shaken and rainy in the morning and afternoon? Or am I the only one who is getting older, becoming more depraved than the old me?
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