People say I’m useless

I was born and raised in the Southwest region, graduated from a college near my home. I do not follow a profession, but work many different jobs such as assistants and workers. In 2020, when I was 32 years old, I decided to transfer to university and learn more English. At the beginning of 2022, I graduated, at the same time had to have appendectomy and treatment for gastritis.

At the hospital, I deeply regretted thinking about my youth, hoping to quickly recover from my illness to go back to work to help my parents. God does not disappoint people, I found a good job with a monthly salary of 10 million VND, near my home, working for a clean foreign fruit company. I was extremely happy, but I quit my job before I had not worked for a long time because of too much thinking and my own pride. As a result, I am now unemployed, have no money, and owe tens of millions of dong for medical treatment.

>> Too much inertia makes me feel useless

More seriously, now I’m like a soulless person. Seeing my old mother still suffering because of me, I cried. The ability to find a good job was almost impossible when I was 34 years old, did not have much experience, and was not healthy enough to work hard anymore. I don’t expect people to forgive me, I just hope that young people shouldn’t be like me. Over the past two months, I could barely eat or sleep, partly because I regretted my job, partly because I was unemployed, and I didn’t know what to do for a living and to repay my mother’s debt. When I was conscious of life, put in a lot of effort to achieve results, and then left, it was extremely painful. Maybe everything is too late, is there any miracle that gives me another chance to make up for her?

I used to study English every day, but two months ago, I no longer have any mind to study and work. People around me say I’m useless, I’m not sad because I know I haven’t done anything. Everyone can scold me, I don’t blame myself, but please give me encouragement, so that I can reduce my negative thoughts. Is everything over for me, a 34-year-old young man with no job, no money, no where to go?

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