I gave birth very gently, it was my husband who lost strength because of crying too much

Recently, at the show Chat with mom with milksinger Crystal revealed the arduous journey of motherhood after 13 miscarriages, once fell into postpartum depression to the point of wanting to commit suicide, and hidden 2 years of marriage with her Korean husband.

Maybe God cut off my reproductive tract

Already ready to be a single mother, I ordered sperm from abroad. But the male hormone in me is 34 times higher than that of a normal woman, so the pregnancy just got bigger and bigger.

I thought, God must have cut off my reproductive tract. I beseech all types are not available. I tried all ways, from natural to scientific, with no success. Thirteen miscarriages got me used to waking up in a pool of blood.

When I was pregnant with Snail, I was not sure, it took 3 months for the fetus to stabilize before I dared to tell family and friends.

During my pregnancy, I talked to my baby a lot. I told her that, if she liked me as her mother, she would stay, if not, she would just go, as if her mother had not yet had a predestined relationship.

I often read negative news about stillbirth, miscarriage, which makes me panic. 9 months pregnant, I worry every day, counting every day to go to the antenatal clinic. I was morning and banged my face in the toilet all day until I lost weight, couldn’t eat, but fortunately could still sleep for the first few months.

I thought I fainted, I’m so sorry

My husband is a foreigner, younger than me, so frankly, he is quite carefree. At that time, we had not registered our marriage, so we lived separately. So, for 9 months and 10 days of pregnancy, I was alone.

However, my husband is also very responsible and understanding. She is also the child of a single mother, so she does whatever she needs.

Fortunately, my birthing process was quite smooth. I gave birth very gently, it was my husband who lost strength because of crying too much. Although my husband loves my children very much, but after giving birth, I had to raise the child alone because my husband had to return home to take care of his mother, who had terminal cancer.

Taking care of children was hard, and without a husband by my side, I fell into depression in the first few months.

I was under terrible stress because I had to express milk constantly, could only sleep sitting up. Having clogged milk hurts more than any kind of pain in the world.

Since then, I was depressed, irritable, thinking about bad things, considering suicide as normal.

Stealing, baby snail did not cry. Only once, I was in a lot of pain because of blocked milk, I had to hold my baby in my arms, but she cried so much, I shouted “will you shut up”.

Suddenly, my baby turned purple and closed his eyes to sleep, I thought he had fainted. Before that scene, I very regret, never dare to do that again. I decided to cut milk and I found that decision too accurate, must be healthy to raise children.

I feel like my husband and I are close friends

My Korean husband and I registered to get married in 2020 but have not held a wedding yet. At the end of March 2022, we divorced.

My husband is not a prostitute, and I have no one either. In fact, I love my husband the most and I know for sure that my husband loves me the most. The only thing is, because I had a hard time raising my children, but I didn’t have a husband beside me, so that business was born.

When my husband returned to Korea, I was very upset, but I had no right to be angry and let it out. My husband made me a habit of being lonely, so I don’t need him anymore.

We are no ordinary couple, two years of marriage but not sleeping together. We were still happy, helping each other but not holding hands, not even a kiss.

We called each other every day to talk but there was no sobbing nostalgia.

I feel like my wife and I are like close friends raising a baby. We hadn’t lived together for almost a year before our divorce, it’s just that no one knew.

So, my husband and I talked about whether we should maintain a relationship, or have our own way to live a normal life like other people. In the end, we decided to divorce.

Although divorced, my wife and I still maintain a good relationship, raising our daughter together. I still thank my husband and promise to try to be the best mother I can be for my children.

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