Should I persist in pursuing when I run out of love?

Neither of us thought we were going to be in a serious relationship. In February of this year, she suddenly texted me, saying she needed to consult about love. After listening to the story and giving advice, I found this girl very interesting, so I boldly pursued and also received her approval.

After that, although I did not officially confess, the two of them gave each other many words of love. In more than three months of learning, as long as we have free time, we call and text each other. I said I love you and you also admitted to liking me. The two share a lot of stories about work, family, life views, love history, and even private and secret things. Anyone who hears this story will think that we will become lovers and can completely go to kiss like the two of us said to each other. The story of life is not like a dream when I destroyed everything with my own hands. During the time we got to know each other, I made a lot of mistakes.

>> The way my love makes my wife all emotional

Initially, because the distance was quite far, the two promised to meet in Hanoi when they could arrange a time. After that, I got a job in Hanoi, so the opportunity to meet each other came earlier. However, my low self-esteem about my job and part of my appearance made me delay meeting, even though she repeatedly expressed her desire to meet. She frankly said that I have never seen anyone delay meeting for as long as I do. Instead, I just “made up” that time will test our feelings and in fact I lost.

Another mistake of mine was being careless. I don’t pay attention to her feelings, often say negative things when under stress, even though she herself has faced a lot of pressure in work and life. I even advised her to find someone better to love. At that time, I noticed the anger in her voice but could only apologize and promise to change.

After each time like this, she still holds back, forgives and advises me to try to live more positively. Until I suspect you’re lying, it’s like a drop of water that overflows a glass. I sell goods at a shopping mall, so I usually come home very late. That day, nearly 12 o’clock at night, I texted and called, still no answer. The next morning, she texted again saying that the phone was out of power, forgot to charge it at the store, so she didn’t know I was calling. The incident was nothing serious, but I “trimmed to find traces” that hurt her. With my straightforward personality, I said that when I called her, there was still music on hold, so there was no way that the phone would be out of power. The obsession of being deceived in the past, I foolishly said that I once suspected you of lying. At that time, she still held back and said she understood how I felt.

>> Loving someone is so painful

Whatever happens will come, I was silent for more than a week before texting me saying I didn’t want to continue. I’m stressed, I don’t like being controlled by others. She said we weren’t in an official relationship yet, so my seriousness made her think. Only then did I realize that I was in love with this girl and that I was wrong, too wrong for the past three months. Now I’m working very hard to save this relationship. She refused to answer texts or answer the phone, so I had to go to work to wait to see her. The response was only indifference, before turning to anger. She even texted me asking me not to disturb her.

I am a person with a heavy heart, so far I have only had three relationships, the first two times were one-sided love for three years and four years. For the past five years, I have not loved anyone more until I met you, but this time the hurt is worse than the previous two loves. I am 30 years old, depressed because of heartbreak, don’t know what to do to get out of this situation. I still love you so I haven’t thought of giving up. If you persist in pursuing, will you think that I want to control, monitor and disturb? Indeed, I am very stuck, would like to receive everyone’s advice.

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